On another Saturday :)

This is the seond time I felt that there was something different in our friendship. I really am obtuse, blockhead. And I hope that this time I'm not reading all the wrong signs again. He only shows that side when there were only the 2 of us. And that day, there definitely was something weird in the atmosphere, or he just had a bad day just as I had a very tiring day.
I am afraid. Because I have always been careless and treat everyone as my brothers. I don't want to lose that pure friendship. Took me so long to see. I hope I never did. But it sure feels good to be loved. Thanks.

Today I ran away from the camp. Assignment was one thing, but not going, ultimately, I feel relaxed. I get to do my own things for a change. There is a mild repelling effect between her and me. I feel inclined to not exist in the same field as her, maybe because I don't want to feel controlled or overshadowed by her. I guess horoscopes are true, and I'm not really very compatible with a Leo, especially since you stuck with one for life.

Read the interesting blogs of one of my friends. Loved the way she enjoyed her life and everything. She has tons of friends and gatherings all the time. I used to want that life, needing someone to do things together. But now, I know that actually I love time with myself more. Those outings and stuff, I still want them, like I'm looking for backpacking partners now. But most of the time, I like one or two close friends and a quiet setting. Crowds and every night supper is not really my thing. :P

I guess I am really naturally inclined to be a writer. I will definitely get the job I love. Whether or not the job exist in a company, I can always make things happen. Actually, I don't want to work in a company at all. If I get the right kind of mentor and training, I could probably fly high on a sales career. Why sales when I'm such a shy person? I think that it's something else I could be good in, but I don't want to partner with ma. It's a weird thing, I know. I don't want to have her influence reaching into my circle. So if I get another mentor that is willing to take me in, and in the same company, I would go. I no longer want to be labeled as someone's daughter. I just want to be independent.

Dreamers rule. Aspired to grow. I can make a difference.