Decision made

I found a blog today, with the name "Living My Dreams". By a 30 year old Malay guy who has very fine English, rather well-off but seemed to have had some bitter experiences. After all he has gone through half the life that I haven't yet experience, not even my first love that will not start any sooner. I think I will become a regular visitor of his blog, maybe there is much to be learnt from the experienced.

Imagine a car with both the brake and the accelerator pushed down. Building up potential energy to speed, but going no where. I kind of felt like that. Wanting to take actions but fearing to take action as well, both the brakes and the accelerator are on. Just depends on which one I'm going to let go in NEAR future. I have to do that real soon or I'm not going anywhere. It is not a very good feeling, especially the cars from all around you are already dissappearing in the horizon, and I am still not budging.

I have other things to take care of, so I think I will keep my word for another year. To be single, but not until 25 (that's way too long). Think 20 should be ok. 20 or until I am successful, whichever comes last. This is my decision.