Downright down...
I wonder how does it feels to be an all big-time winner. Does the all big time winner knows how it feels like to be a loser? Maybe they have been through that phase, all those hardships and failures to achieve this all time big winner status. Maybe they are just born lucky and never knows how a loser would feel.
Winner will never understand a loser in these few situations below.
One, different mind sets. A loser will always think that some things are just too difficult to achieve, so they'll just live without it. Winners tend to be a bit more aggressive to get what they want. That is why winners can never understand why losers give up so easily. Because they don't have that kind of mind set, they do not know giving up, and it seems baffling to them why anyone would want to do such a thing, like giving up.
Two, taking problems differently. One girl asked her friend in astonishment, "How could you have depression? What is there to be depressed about?" Maybe she haven't met those things, or maybe those things that depressed her friend is just way too minor for her. But in her friend's case, they are mighty big and she can't overcome them. That's why she got depression. And this friend will get even more depressed when she tries to talk with a friend who doesn't understands her but makes problems worse. That is why I seldom tell my problems to anyone. As if anyone will understand.
I look at these all time big-winners, I could not bring myself to tell them how I feel. Maybe they are not all time big winners, maybe it's just me. How can I tell them that I feel like a loser, that I felt like I let them down because I didn't did good enough in my role? They chose me to be a leader, hope that I would become a leader, but I'm just brought up to be a follower.
Because they wanted to train me to become a leader, I will try my best, but it's just so hard and I feel bad when the thing doesn't turn out good. I'm just not very good into details. I'm obtuse. In fact I feel downright down after the event... It's bloody... My friend said he'll always be there for me, I appreciate that... But I couldn't bring myself to tell him that I feel downright bad enough before he told me my problems 'cause I already knew them...
I'm NOT saying I am a loser... Just that I feel like one at this particular moment... But still, nobody knows what I'm talking about anyway.
So I kept my problems to myself again. After all, I don't know a lot of people who reads this blog, especially the one that I talked about. He won't read blogs... hahaha... :P The ones that will read this, well, I think they are more understanding...
posted by Living My Dream at 7/08/2005 03:28:00 PM
1 Comments:
Well, I tend to disagree a little this time, about what you said about big-time winners.
I believe that the people you're referring to are those who are slightly ignorant about losing. People who are overconfident in their lives but in truth, they failed to evaluate their own selves.
What makes a winner, is not how far they can go without failing, but rather from how they learn from their failures. From failures, we can evaluate ourselves, and we can also figure out how to improve ourselves.
Example : Alfred Nobel. His inventions didn't come just like a lightbulb over his head, but it comes more from things like explosions in his lab, messed up creations, etc. Bill Gates, he's a Harvard drop-out but he achieved success because of his determination.
Being a winner, and also a leader, depends on how responsible you are. Instead of blaming yourself of being obtuse, why don't you ask yourself : "What can I do to benefit others from my current position as a leader?"
I'm striving to achieve that level too, though I said it as if I'm a winner already but in reality I'm not (I'm more like nagging here actually =_="). No matter what, don't forget your responsibilities and do your best out of it.
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